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He wants to have his cake and eat me too
Oct. 19th, 2005 09:44 pmDid you ever look south from the 520 bridge at night and see a blackness on the water? I went there last weekend. It is called Seward Park. It was never as striking a blackness as that of Central Park or even of Stanley Park, but I can't move myself to either of those places. The park is, I learned, the last standing old-growth forest within the city limits of Seattle, which explains why it is so totally unruled a place. I thought it was very secretive, and I didn't even know that a body was going to be found there three days after I went. I can only think of inappropriate jokes right now in relation to this, so I'm going to change the subject.
The new subject is Songs from Ally McBeal. I was thinking that I definitely have been gay since I was eleven, because that's when Ally McBeal premiered. I didn't miss an episode. It is a testament that I watched the show weekly even though I hated the main character. Because I hated the main character? I don't know how I happened to get the CD "Songs from Ally McBeal," whether it was a christmas present from my grandmother that I couldn't return (unlike J. Lo's "On The Six" from my parents, which practically brought itself back to Fred Meyer), or whether I bought it myself, which seems unlikely. In any case, I definitely listened to it almost every day in middle school on the CD player my mom gave me for my birthday. She got it for free for listening to a presentation from TrendWest. To this day I am very good at remembering the track order on CDs because my CD player didn't have a display. The last song on "Songs from Ally McBeal" is called "Maryland," and it is one of my favorites. The beginning is confusing, though:
I been thinkin'
I been thinkin'
I been thinkin' too much.
How does this go? Has she been thinking. Thinking some more. And then thinking too much? Or has she been thinking. Then thinking that she has been thinking too much? Or even she has been thinking that she has been thinking that she has been thinking too much.
The new subject is Songs from Ally McBeal. I was thinking that I definitely have been gay since I was eleven, because that's when Ally McBeal premiered. I didn't miss an episode. It is a testament that I watched the show weekly even though I hated the main character. Because I hated the main character? I don't know how I happened to get the CD "Songs from Ally McBeal," whether it was a christmas present from my grandmother that I couldn't return (unlike J. Lo's "On The Six" from my parents, which practically brought itself back to Fred Meyer), or whether I bought it myself, which seems unlikely. In any case, I definitely listened to it almost every day in middle school on the CD player my mom gave me for my birthday. She got it for free for listening to a presentation from TrendWest. To this day I am very good at remembering the track order on CDs because my CD player didn't have a display. The last song on "Songs from Ally McBeal" is called "Maryland," and it is one of my favorites. The beginning is confusing, though:
I been thinkin'
I been thinkin'
I been thinkin' too much.
How does this go? Has she been thinking. Thinking some more. And then thinking too much? Or has she been thinking. Then thinking that she has been thinking too much? Or even she has been thinking that she has been thinking that she has been thinking too much.
